Working at your company sounds like a real scream. In this kind of environment, it is not surprising that you yelled at your employee.
In the first place, it seems like the company has a culture that condones yelling, berating, and other forms of verbal abuse. When there are screamers at the top of an organization, it is not surprising to see and hear others modeling their behavior at all job levels.
In addition, many people learn much about managing from their own managers. In a word, if you report to a screamer, the odds are that you will be a screamer too.
As for being reprimanded for screaming in an organization that has seemingly turned yelling into a normal and acceptable practice, it is understandable that you are upset. However, rather than being upset about being punished for a behavior that others commit with impunity, you should take a step back and recognize that this organization is not only abusive, it is also has a serious case of inconsistency, inequity, and nastiness, and it is infecting you.
Sometimes with all the screaming going on, it may be hard to hear the real message: Does this literally sound like the right organization for you?
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